'It's my birthday, thanks for asking'

Its really interesting having a birthday that is scheduled smack bang in the middle of the holidays. I mean its great to know you shouldn't need to study, but if you can't or don't organize a party you don't get to be with friends as a result. I have to raise this point up after heaps of people say, 'Isn't it awesome that your birthday is in the holidays?'. Not really, because people go overseas, and on top of that since they haven't been putting their bum to seats filling in papers or frantically typing essays. What i'm attempting to say is that the enjoyment and relief of a party or even a birthday celebration subsides with the holidays. Reason? well i believe its partly due to the fact that people no longer have to relieve themselves of the stress education and work provides. Also i think its the mood of the holidays, you just become so much more relaxed anyways and procrastinate sun up and sun down.

Well i think i should put some stats up just for you blog readers and trolls to read. out of the over 500 friends i have on facebook, less than 90 said anything. Interestingly, the first was someone that i know out of school.

How about another interesting thing? On both of the outings i went to, only two people said 'happy birthday'. maybe because it hadn't happened yet, or maybe because i'm considered on the outs of the group? I have no idea guys, but thats just something i noticed. On that note: @Icedtrees: hope you like your prezzie.

I'm going to go on a tangent here, but why was it called the commune people? I feel like there's a lack of touch base and until i left there was a complete lack of activity. Maybe i guess, because you guys are soo deeply involved with your gaming careers, but it seems like i can't trust most of you guys. Sorry if you guys just realised, but sometimes the way people act after i guess one of the 'minions' leave the pack, can seem as suspicious behaviour. On that note, i thank JM for actually saying his opinion when i chose to leave the fb group.

So then onto a similar but different topic, holidays and work. Why is it that during holidays that you feel unwilling to do more work then you usually do on a regular basis, but also feel that if you don't do more, you're totally screwing yourself in the foreseeable future? My parents constantly whine about me not doing enough homework, and this not getting yourself into a routine. But to counter that argument is that leading edge course graph, which stated that if you blow heaps of hours of work early, you'll end up burning out. How do you know whether your study is effective? and furthermore, if its effective?

I mean I read most of people's blogs, which either consists of unfortunate events (happy apple get better soon, we are praying for you!), slight procrastination or crazy amounts of intense study? Yes, there are the occasional blog about an outing, but to those who do the intense study with particular focus on one subject? how do you guys do it? And do you think you guys can last doing that all year (assuming you change from subject to subject)?

Up to this point, i must say it's been a rather disappointing holidays, and sure everytime i say that people will always say 'look on the bright side blah blah blah', but sometimes you just have to be realistic. It hasn't been filled with study, or crammed full with productive study, but it hasn't been the ultimate bludge either. Furthermore, the day every year i usually look forward too, i felt a foreshadowing of gloom and boredom. Somehow it turned out to be that way, with the most exhilarating event being cancelled last minute due to weather conditions. Overall it was a bland day, nothing special.

So, someone else suggested organising an outing to celebrate my birthday, but it just feels wrong, after giving most of my social group the chance to say hbd, and some even a double dose, that to make an event happen just because of that, would show my isolation if not a sense of arrogance. Probably this whole blog shows both of those emotions, and now that i think about it, those two words isolation and arrogance seem so different but like black and white, come with each other.

I could keep on going off on tangents here and there, but hey, this is my blog which has frequent short posts and the odd long post, so i run it how i like to. The threat of going overboard never happened and the transitional holidays has been less than eventful. For better or worse, this is life and we should take it as it is.

So this post is to cover my post that i missed a while back. Hope you guys like the change. Just don't expect it everytime.

See ya!